Captured this while leaving drill.. Art is literally in front of us & we don’t take the time to appreciate it.#cumulusclouds #trees #mountains #forest
I think my problem is I care way too much about ppl, more so than they care about me.. When I care about you (friendship/relationship) I’ll generally check on you and just be there to make sure you’re ok, but I never genuinely reciprocate it back.. I hate how my attention can be more focused on another individual besides myself, so that further let’s me know, I’ve lost me.. It’s time I started focusing on ME and what makes ME happy, instead of being the person pleasing others.
I’ve always dreamed of my life being a fairy tale, that one day my knight & shining armor would swoop down & make me the happiest woman in the world.. The worst part about a fairy tale, they’re real to a certain extent.. There is no more love at first sight, this generation is filled with so many temptations, that it makes it difficult for ppl to be faithful & loyal. In fairy tales he only has eyes for her and vice versa, what happened to that? I think I’ll start writing my own fairy tale.. I want my happy ending with my armor, every girl deserves a King that’ll treat her like the Queen she is.
When you’re into a person, everything they do affects you in some way.. Whether it’s social media or how they carry themselves as a whole. So it’s as though you’re questioning yourself, “what can I do better”, ” am I wasting their time & mine”, “are they just as interested as they were when we first met”, etc.. Then before you know it, you’re reverting back to previous relationships in which some of your securities were broken.. I’ve learned over this journey of mine that sometimes you just have to say “fuck it, this is for me” bc with a timid attitude you’ll never accomplish anything worthy, but heartache.